Didnt know that it was my grandmother's birthday til my sister told me
when she told me i just remembered.
like wtf?!
didnt get her a present or anything.
maybe buying her something tomorrow after my english paper?!
she have been taking care of me ever since i was a baby.which means she have been taking care of me for 15 years.
oh gosh thats long man.
haha.
i m like effing close to her and she have seen my grow up(:
& i m a big girl now(:
she thought me the moral of being a better person&i m greatful for that.
when i was kid,my grandma will always shield me when my mum was about to beat me.
haha.
i was pretty much a naughty girl when i was kid.
haha:D
anyways tomorrow having english paper.
the first paper.
¬ looking forward as after the paper i still have remedials with my chem&maths teacher.
told you its the mugging season now.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 | 5:24 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008 | 6:51 AM
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i dont know why but i just cant upload photos maybe i will ty upload tomorrow or something. slept effing late yesturday.slept at 1am.As i was mugging for mid year like mad.But i think nothing got into my head or something. hahaha. &thats bad okayy cause i mug so hard and nothing gets in. like wtf?! i m like so messed up now.i m studying abit by abit and nothing can get in my god damn head fcuk! i have like 7 sub to study and not a single one can get it. i m so dead for mid year. i can say bye to all my subject man i envy dearest alot okayy cause he got a queen size bed whereas mines a pull out bed only.He got the life okay.Sleeping all alone one a big bed. Remember you are giving the queen size bed to me (: &the bed sheet is super cute:D one side spongebob&the other is simpson. cute la hahaha. having musical tomorrow(?) maybe i guess. but its the examination period how can you have musical man. retarded school. i swear my school is damn bloody stupid okayyy!even examination period some cca are on. my school is such a whore. haha. school cant be whore cause whore means prostitue. oh fuck having two periods of maths tomorrow B-O-R-I-N-G! i gotta rush through my chinese homework. i owe my teacher like god damn long ready and she have been calling my mum like dunno how many times ready. but i still cant be bothered.hahaha english paper on wednesday its damn drag. |
Friday, April 25, 2008 | 2:47 AM
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couldn't sleep last night i was tosing&turning last night due to things in my mind. i thought bout what happen yesturday and yes i was in the wrong&its all my fault.I didnt know that i will hurt you so badly.I m really sorry. i feel god damn guilty now although everything is fine): i know its all my fault and i m the one to blame&i didnt mean to do that to you&i know that i have let you down.But i will do whatever it takes to change the whole thing around. |
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 | 6:20 AM
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i was in a really bad mood just now&i sort of vend my anger at you.i m really sorry dear.It just that i dont wanna see him.i mean i said it before,i do not want to have any connection with him or what so ever.But when i saw you with him it really shocked me big time.Thus i got angry and i left just like that ignoring you.i was really very angry/hurt.cause you told me you do not like him &i did not expect you to even sit next to him.I m sorry&when i went back into the class,i thought it over again&again and its your choice of making friends i cannot be selfish.you have your own friends&i have mine.I shouldnt interfere at all. & i dont know how to express my true feelings towards you! i can express it in my blog but i just dont know how to express all my true heart feelings to you.I know you love me alot&i m sorry if i ever hurt you in anyway(cause you dont show your feelings&i have no choice but to guess once in awhile) I really want you to be happy everyday.seeing you happy makes me happy too.You are someone that i wanna share my joy&sorrow together. you are different from other people way different. I DONT want the relationship to be low profile anymore.I m not afraid people to know that you are my boyfriend&i m proud to have you in my life(: && no worries nothing will happen to me alright(: although you had a bad feeling when i left you.I m just tired&i can promise you that nothing will happen to me alright(: ?i m strong okay?hahahaha!although i m clumpsy all the time not seeing where i m going.But i m okayyyy.way okayyy i think.hahaha! having school til 4 tomorrow&its a drag!i hate thursdayyy!especially when the day ends off with chemistry. oh yarh i still remember what happened last week. mr han made me seat in the front role.i didnt know why but he said i was talking.but for god sake,i wasnt talking i was dreaming actually.i was looking outside as my bf was playing soccer.hahaaha!so it was kinda my fault!i was surrounded my nerds/gay& i feel god damn weird about it&i was pretty much sleepy and i didnt get what on earth he was teaching the class almost the half of the class was sleeping&i gotta be awake as i was seating infront.I gotta act as if i was paying attention&its hard la&i was "acting"that i understand and i asked stupid question.But he think its soemthing interesting.HA!whatever! hahaha:D chemistry is like____ physics is like____ i think all the subject is like_______! |
Monday, April 21, 2008 | 5:19 AM
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People are getting into relationship these days or rather having crushes&its really sweet seeing them together & no breakups at all&its a good thing. & i realise that i m truely lucky to be with you.Although i said it upteen times. but its true. you are someone i will treasure&cherish&you mean alot to me. more than the world i think haha you are just so unique&you always make my day(: although you irritate me once in awhile but i wont get angry at you at all haha. seeing you everyday doesnt bored me at all infact i wish i can see you even longer.As long as possible. I LOVE talking to you on the phone/msging you/seeing you everyday/having you in my life/you sending me home:D/seeing you play soccer although it boreds me but i dont mind/seeing you smile at me/waving to you(:/disturbing you! &MORE MORE MORE thats shows how much you mean to me(: i love you with all my heart.nobody can replace you. i remember you once said:'i wont hurt you if you hurt me&i only love you.' thats seriously very sweet&you seriously make me love you more and more each day. i bet now you know how much i love you eh? hahahaha. told you that i love you more than you love me(: believe now:D first month coming&i hope it will be a memorable one for you&me:D xoxoxoxo RENA; |
Saturday, April 19, 2008 | 9:34 AM
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blogging at 12 something now is abit weird for me. as i dont usually do that. feeling tired and stuff. finally change my blogskin. found a suitable one. &i make alittle bit of changes. put my pictures&all so today i went to esplanade libary to mug for mid year i wasnt doing my additonal maths at all. i was purely doing geography only&after that we had break(its a must)we went up tp the roof terrace&camwhore a little. Went back to the libary soon after web are done camwhoring. Headed to marina square as we were done studying & i was right.i saw that person i dont wanna see at all. goddamnit. used red hill's laptop&surf the net(: while we were in starbucks talking&laughing. apparently yimling&I laughed the loudest cause i m always the one starting the nonsense&she will laugh along with me like a fool. oh well we cant help it. hahaha(: &soon after we went home. i miss him alot)': i want monday to come faster!i cant wait to see him on monday(: cause i miss him(: hahaha! its as simple as that la. 14days&counting til 1st month(: its the mugging season now. i m gonna mug hard. not gonna fool/play around for the time being. its time to study/mug hard:D p.s tina tuna is loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! |
Friday, April 18, 2008 | 7:36 AM
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had cross country today.i m like super tired now. but its alright i can still blog(: during croos country i did lots of things talk/laugh/allow people to have a sip of my water/almost sprained my ankle. (i m always that careless) &after that went home with dear beloved:D walk down the slope with him&yimling(: i swear you make me love you more&more dear(: 15 more days&counting til 1st month! looking forward to that particular date(: &i think i m gonna get him soemthing(: i treasure every moment i spend with you although its awhile only. (i mean what i type okayyy dumb;D) &i love talking to you on the phone. you are effing cute la thats why iloveyou(: i get jealous easily because i love you jealous=care/love(: (it makes sense to me) &i love my dumb alot(: its countless or rather uncountable. hahahaha! going to esplanade libary to mug for my mid year exam going with my twin,michelle&red hill i need to mug real hard tomorrow. no matter what. i m gonna mug/camwhore(: gonna camwhore hell lots. though i know that if i go esplanade tomorrow,i will see people that i dont wanna see. but its alright,its not his father place anyway.i can go whenever i like. i just have to ignore or dont even bump into him. i will TRY not to. i m gonna miss him alot on weekends cause i wont get to see him)': its saddening. (sounds pathetic) hahaah! i need to change my blogskin.its just too dull la not fanciful at all. its just plain. i gotta start searching for blogskin(: |
Thursday, April 17, 2008 | 8:01 AM
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my phone has died on me!like wtf?! this phone is not even a year and its totally screwed up now. budget phone. haha. had chemistry til 4 today.my normal timetable actually. after chemistry michael,shane,daniel,ara&yu kai shoot zhi wei using paper.as in they fold it til like bullet form. something like that. shane&ara aim at zhi wei you know what. HAHAHA! it was hilarious i swear. shane&I were laughing our ass off. waited for dear beloved to finish his soccer game (as usual la.i m always the one waiting.haha) cause he is the one fetching me home:D &he is all i can ask for.really(: i enjoy going back with him although we walk like abit far apart. its still alright for me(: so long as i gotta go home with him(: haha. &he promise to carry the same bag as me tomorrow(: yeahhh!same crumpler but different colour(: mines purple whereas his is red(: iloveyoudear:D walk down the slope today with idris,dear beloved&yimling. idris is effing irritating. hahahaha he can talk crap from the start til the end. kinda like our entertainer. My twin came to my house. we used the gym. apparently,we went out for a run than we went back to use the gym til like 7plus. &i send my twin to the bus stop(: after that,my dad brought me to queensway as i gotta get a pair of running shoe and i finally got a nike cross training one. as my current adidas shoe cant really run in it. Having cross country tomorrow its a drag i swear. my twin and i aim to get top 20. & i think its possible. (confident eh?hahaha) i got due date assignment not yet completed. god damn it. gotta stay up late AGAIN.to finish it up. |
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 | 5:09 AM
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Where were you when I said I loved you? And where were you when I cried at night? Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you. Thinking of all the times we shared. i m tired of keeping the whole relationship low profile&all its like sooner or later people will know. okay maybe whatever i m typing now is just crap cause i m under too much stress due to mid year exam just around the corner like 3 more weeks to go to doom day. hahaha. i havent even complete one subject yet. i m dead la if this whole thing continues and i got to drop amaths. fcuk! stayed back in school to mug on my emaths. i just realise how much i m lagging behind. i mean emaths you gotta have the foundation and all so that you can move on. my foundation is crap. when i started revising i just realsise that whenever my teacher was teaching,my soul wasnt there. now i know how far back i was. but i picked myself up slowly and i m going fine now(: not only my emaths,my amaths too. i gotta do something bout my amaths too. my amaths is crap too. but i m slowly understand every single thing my teacher say now. i can finally catch up. thank god! hahaha. michelle and akif was fooling around in the canteen just now. they were playing with water. you know like lil kids la. &luckily izzuan was there so that he could coach me on my emaths. thankyou:D going to mug for physics on saturday with yimling,michelle i guess. thats another pathetic subject that i took. combine science is like fcuk. i m taking subjects that i hate. irritating. iloveyou:D &you know who you are:D |
Monday, April 14, 2008 | 3:40 AM
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my 300 post:D time flies. i was abit late for school. like afew minutes. cause my sister was taking her god damn time to get ready damn her! anyway i m having monday blues i swear. i hate monday!the starting of the week having cross country this week. i m gonna wear my class tee shirt '12' hahaha:D &i need to start to build up my stamina. mid year exam is round the corner and i have started mugging hard like a mad person. hahaha! i wanna ace my exam this time.its a must:D my dad is back from his overseas trip&he is gonna start fetching me to school from tomorrow onwards(: i dont like my mum to fetch me:/ cant really joke that well with her hahahaha. opps:/ geography was alright.same old thing. pe was B-O-R-I-N-G! Maths was stoning period mother tongue was eating period while doing my homework hahaha:D Assembly was okay social studies was alright. thats what practically happen today as in my timetable. boring huh?i know. sec 3 life is like DUH! gonna mug hard todayyyyy! :D I M IN LOVE WITH YOU Y (that dumb person know who on earth he is la) hahaha |
Sunday, April 13, 2008 | 6:30 AM
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the performance and all was a blast apparently i was not nervous at all when i perform. to be honest,i enjoy it effing much hahaha. i was apparently from performing arts before and i should not be afriad to perform infront of the whole crowd. i saw himbo on that day:D was effing happy to see himbo on speech day he never fail to make me laugh when i m down. himbo peirced his tongue and i was super shocked but well,he did. naughty himbo. hahahaha! i called him himbo as he called me bimbo so yarh fair. hahaha saw nabil,jeremy(mods?),jian xing,stephanie,jeshua,rainey,afiqah,chastine&many many more people. well all good things gotta come to an end. i still remember that we were from zero to something. hahaha it was hell of a time hanging around with a bunch of people like them we are just like a big family. it was fun partying with them before the performance. we were dancing like crazy in the ava room. not caring that we are gonna perform. we were rocking the house down haha. but its okay we still have like 2 more show to go and the whole musical chapter gonna close soon. its saddening.we are quite united in a sense. we share the joy&laughter&we got into trouble together too. got scolded and stuff hahah we gonna have the performance at the dbs auditorium on the 14th&15th of august. the price of the ticket is 12 bucks if you want get it form me:D (i m advertising my OWN musical.hahaha) oh&i should thank 1c for supporting me yeahh. thats how they thank me for taking care of them during the 3days orientation camp? hahaha sounds funny eh. any oh how. musical starts with us(: &this is something that i wont regret joining at all. its not a waste of time either not having musical this week. we are all having a break.its weird not going for training this week.it seems weird but training gonna start next week as per normal. so we cant wait at all. hahaha. Ian lucks for your job interview tomorrow. good luck dont screw it up okayyyy! clumpsy ass. hahaha(: be really honoured cause i wrote your name in my blog(: &i swear life is getting better and better day by day &imma happy kid NOW:D pretty unusual i guess. life was ironic for me in the beginning but things starts to change. & I m glad it did. if it didnt thats it.life's gonna be fucking boring for me&i m gonna hate it like nobody business. gonna blog again soon when i m free or got the mood too:D |
Thursday, April 10, 2008 | 7:01 AM
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FUCK PERFORMANCE TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! GOD DAMN IT! thats how nervous i am. |
Monday, April 07, 2008 | 4:32 AM
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Today was effing hectic. i thought i lost my key as i could not find it. i was panicking like crazy when i knew my key was lost i had to face the music so i called my mum and told her that i lost the key. But who knows that te key was in my mum's car. kinda lucky la. i will make sure i check my surrounding before i leave that particular place. i Have finally learn my lesson(: thank god! anyways,wasnt really in the mood when i was in school.I didnt feel like studying but i force myself to cause i knoe my MYE are just around the corner and i gotta buck up. like really really hard? i have like 2more weeks and i gotta revise my amaths and emaths okay or rather i gotta pratice alot! I GOTTA PASS MY AMATHS!!!! if not i m gonna dropD: i have no choice but i need to drop.we are ADVICE to drop out of amaths if we cant pass it.damn it. had makeup session today.i went for a lil while only. i dont really need that much of make up. hahahaha! after class(social studies) Went to westmall with my twin(: i had my lunch whereas my twin just stare at me while i was eating. hahaha bought earrings again(: i can have a collection.i swear. i bought a bikini earrrings.my twin bought black whereas i bought white(: cool eh? she got the same rose earring as i do. twins are just twins. ahahaahahaha. &i swear whatever i m typing now are just random now yimling is my twin(: wqe look alike but just the height difference. i m taller than yimling(: grow okayyy! must be as tall as me allrightt twin(; hahaha. haing musical training tomorrow&i m gonna sleep early ciaosY |
Saturday, April 05, 2008 | 11:46 PM
 (that pretty daisy that i took.i took it by MYSELF)You gotta take it slow when you are in a relationship you cant force things. & guys are shy now whereas girls are daring now. (quite true) if i m ever going to a relationship again,i will seriously take it real slow. cause i think there is no hurry to you know rush through a relationship that doesnt last at all(: i finally know how to think(: hahahaha. anyway went out with my mum&my sis yesturday.we went to raffles city. cause my sis wanna buy birthday present for her friend. had dinner at season reason.some cafe. brought my camera&i took some pictures. I bring my camera where ever i go. its like my second cant leave without thing. haha it might seem crazy but its true. bought a top form topshop yesturday. A turquoise colour top it was quite cheap 24bucks after discount. After that we went to cold rock.holland V for dessert. i had bubblegum,nerds&gummy bear whereas my sister had honeycomb,freddo frog&voilet crumble. the queue was effing long&we waited for bout 15mins for our turn to come. the business was effing good even after 10. slept at 1 something last night as i couldnt sleep. woke up at 1 today. hahaha i got my 13 hours of sleep:D if my sister did not wake me up i think i will be still sleeping cause i m too tired to even bother to wake up to have breakfast or maybe even lunch. |
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    After school went to the computer lab to find ms soh as she just finished her class with 1D. Yesturday was her last day in school. i will miss her dearly): we lost a good friend&a great teacher): bought her a precious moment cup&a big big precious moment card(: as precious moment is her favourite(: shed a lil tear when she go cause she is like the closest teacher that emmeline,king yiu&I had. we will obviously miss her! oh and yesturday was fieza's birthdayyyy! we plan a lil surprise for her&i think she was touched(: hahaha! &tzaakir threw ice on us sort of like shoot ice la &the big card kenna. haha luckily it dry fast and no water mark. after school stayed in school waited for michelle cause she had dance. did nothing in school but just stone. emmeline's wallet got stolen another case. like wtf?! first was ness's wallet got stolen,Next was emmeline's.Than whats next huh? saw _____played soccer(: apparently i was there watching him play soccer.it was funny seeing how arian run.i swear its damn gay like. hahaha. Was suppose to go out today with yimling but she couldnt make it again. so i just stayed at home and stone. Its pathetic okay staying at home on a saturday doing nothing, my saturday's was suppose to be full of activities but not staying at home &rot til i die! cause its the only day i can really chill and hang out with my bestest friends:D hahahahaha! FRIDAY IS THE PERFORMANCE!panickinggggggggggggggg! |
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 | 5:07 AM
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i m beat from all the dancing today.i m seriously tired): &i still gotta study for my common test tomorrow. like wtf?! i cant take it anymore): i cant handle that kind of stress.its killing me. i m so tired now that i can seriously just drop dead any moment. really. got two mosquito bite.cause my class is at the bottom where there is drain&where mosquitos can breed?one on my hand and one on my leg. haha &for maths lesson now i will be seperated from that biased miss lim lesson its a good thing for emmeline,michael&I cause the current teacher that is teaching us is really detail and explain everything to you if you do not know. &he teached us this really cool "trick"if you want to solve simultanious equation using calculator. its damn cool.i swear. hahaha. no need to work out the answer and you got your answer. the calculator help you to calculate:D haha its a pretty cheating method la but who cares huh? you get the answer just by pressing the numbers(: ms soh is gonna leave the school soon&i m gonna miss her.she is a excellent teacher that understand us alot.where can you find that kind of teacher huh?like no where&my form teacher now is effing biased/screw up she is also my maths teacher.how unlucky huh? haha &today's rehearsal was good:D we did our best&the whole thing was done properly proud of it(: but i m like damn tired nowD: &i still gotta study for my test tomorrow arghhhhhhhhhhhh! |
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 | 3:59 AM
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I have became an avid blogger.i swear. i have been blogging for the past 2years&blogging have became my everyday thingy&it has also became the "person" i could really talk to. I shared my happy moment&the sad times i had in here:D I vent my anger here too.hahaha.apparently almost all the time i m angry due to the teachers in school&the "stack" of stress i have. i swear i hate teachers.teachers are like a bunch of crap. okay maybe some teachers to be fair. april 11 show is nearing and i m effing nervous. i think i did not do my best today.i think i screwed it up. now in my mind i only have musical&____ nothing else can get into my god damn brain except that 2.haha i wont be paying attention in class from now til aprill 11 as i will be panicking for the april 11 show&if i panick,nothing get into my head .its like a week time only. how fast?! staying back everyday next week to get everything iron out. Having common test tomorrow&i m gonna flunk that two paper. chemistry&physics. okay maybe not 2 but 1.physics. chemistry is kinda like common sense whereas physics is more on maths type. &my maths is not that good. my maths is like fuck?!it effing screw up la. Oh and today is april fool's day. i got fooled by alot of people.i m damn naive okay. |
